Eat Pray Love

After attempting to watch this movie for the past years I finally managed to watch the whole movie and I feel like I achieved something lol… I stumbled into such beautiful words that got me thinking and I thought to share: “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soulmate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soulmate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soulmates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.”

Day 10: TheSW30

Peppsi, Pepe, Pepi, Peps are some of the names I go by but i love mu full name, Perpetua. Perpetua \p(e)-rpe-tua, per-petua\ as a girl's name is of Latin origin, and the meaning of Perpetua is "forever, perpetual".  This is a unique name probably for unique people lol.  I like how it sounds so powerful (PERPETUA) hahaha. This is mainly because of the history of the martyr St Perpetua and her great sacrifice, naming a baby Perpetua is almost like being named after a hero, I am stunned. 

How that fits with me... I can be your hero baby!!! Lol Kk on a serious one, I am this everlasting source of joy and I have an everlasting sense of humour. It's never a dull moment with this lady! I love life and unlike my joy, my struggles only last a season! 

I make more sacrifices for others than myself, not sure if that is a good thing but I love being me! I guess it's in the name! 

My name always reminds me of how His mercies follow me all the days of my life... 

Day 9: #TheSW30

If I say a relationship changes Pepsi it will be a lie. Yes I understand that some things are not really appropriate to do when you are in a relationship and I respect my relationships just FYI lol.

I enjoy dancing naked and it's one thing I love to do on most nights without an audience! That's one thing I can point out. Mmmmm let me think... I talk to myself, I tell myself what I need to hear, I encourage myself and I weigh the pros and cons and make decisions! 

O yes, I cook a lot. I mix things up and make meals that are just out of this world lol. I add ingredients until it tastes good! Then I indulge from the pot! Yum yum yum!!!  

Initially I said relationships don't change me only because I would love to do all those things with my person! 

Day 8: #TheSW30

Love God fiercely because as for me and my house we will serve The Lord! 

Loves me completely, this means they should communicate well... I have never mastered the art of reading minds! Loving me means that you will commit and be true to your commitment! 

Stable family because charity does begin at home hey! A man who understands the importance of family is a gem, they don't make so many of them! 

Driven n adventurous, I get bored easily lol but we got to kick it you know! Driven I say but he should understand the value that comes with actually being content with life, I don't want to be forever chasing!! 

Shallow as this may sound but he has to be easy on the eye! I have to find him sexy as hell! I find a man who loves to dance easy to relate to so that makes a guy easy on the eye in a none conventional way!!! 

Day 7: #TheSW30

Mmmm we all make plans hey, short and long term goals. Some are realistic and some are well just dreams but it's ok to dream they say! I don't even do all the things on my daily to do list I don't know how I thought I would achieve my long term goals. Don't give up on me already, I am not as bad as all this sounds! Well when I look back there are two years of my life  I fail to account but I don't regret the two years for I got to learn so much about life and myself. 

All I am saying is I am not where I thought I would be but I am where God wants me to be and I believe all the desires of my heart will be granted! 

Day 6: #TheSW30

If that is not a movie title, it’s a lie… if I had the love life that I want; I would be blogging about happily ever after. That just sounded like a bitter single woman but what can I say, writing about all those misconceptions kinda got to me… All I am thinking right now is, how in a perfect world me and my imperfect perfect man will be star gazing right now but no I am not. Instead I am sitting here wishing for the love life that I want.

But come to think of it, that statement can be very true hey… like it’s all about the time and place, God’s timing. I painted my Monalisa down to the number of teeth the smile will show off but all I can do is ask God to grant me my Monalisa. As I type this I have faith like a little child, faith that one day when God has prepared me enough I will have the exact love life that I want. Work in progress…

Day 5: #TheSW30

I think people believe that being single is equal to being sad and also equal to being free. Yes, math never made sense to me too but there is no freedom in sadness boo boo. In my equation being single is one of those equations with a positive and a negative before a number. This is so because it’s a personal journey that we all take differently and some take it very well. I have days, days where I just want to be held, days when my friend’s reassurance about life does not make sense. Days when I just need that manly touch and that deep sexy voice telling me that all will be well. On the other hand, I have days when being single makes sense… days when there is nothing lacking, when I am enough for myself. When I actually allow God to be my strength and refuge. The same way relationships have good and bad days. Being single does not equal to sad sad sad. So get off your high horse you who has been in a crappy relationship thinking it is all gloomy out here. There is a rose garden too boo…

The other thing is this thing that I have options as a single woman… well sisi, do you think if I had that much of an option I will be single? Kk am getting a little bit emotional now, but but but???? You get??? Another thing that gets to me is that just because I am single I should not have an opinion on love and relationships. I don’t know how to justify this without sounding bitter but I know you get me…